The past is past. Unchangable. Nothing to do but learn from it. Let’s move forward, shall we?
I resolve to do things fairly often. I’m not sure why the first of the year seems to be the only time reserved for such activities. Do I even have a resolution? Well, I’ve never been much for doing things just because everyone else does. I’ll let you know.
I do know that like most other souls on this Earth, I would like to be happier. And I am also aware of the hard truth that I’m the only thing that controls that. Sure, things happen in the universe that are vastly beyond my control and understanding. If a typhoon struck and swept away my home, I would have no control over that. I could, however, control how I react to it.
So resolution? Improvement? Changes? I guess I want to take more risks, enjoy more small moments, open my eyes and see more things. I want to be kinder. I want to be smarter. I want to make more people smile. I want to not worry so much about how things probably should be or what other people think. I want to be more confident in the fact that I am enough. Silly as that may sound, it’s a big challenge for me.
I do have actual things in the future that need doing. I have to throw a wedding in two months. I can no longer pretend that it’s not happening. I have to get it all done. I have a lot of people to impress and no money to do it with. Why wasn’t I born with the craft gene? That would make this all so much easier. Stay tuned for trials and tribulations.
I would also like to get off this island, if only for a few days. I henceforth resolve to travel somewhere before the end of the year. I don’t think we have the lottery here, so I guess I’ll have to go on a game show or something.
I also promise to write a blog post for each day of this year. And since two of my favorite things are food and stories, expect to see a lot of crap about what I ate, what I watched, and what I read. Yesterday it was Arbitrage and buttermilk cake with chocolate frosting. Although Richard Gere was highly emotional, the cake definitely wins.
It’s a new year. I’m searching for the hope and optimism. Maybe it will return with the sun. It’s gotta be out there somewhere. Onward and upward, right? Where else is there?