I’m home alone all day with something weighing heavily on my mind. And yet, as it was something I allegedly said that caused the whole problem, I suppose I shouldn’t go in to too much detail. But I can’t just sit here by myself and not say how I feel. It’s not in my nature.
My husband is a very hard worker. He tries so hard to please people and help whenever possible. He doesn’t go out seeking conflict. Quite the contrary. He does everything he can to be friends with everyone he encounters. He’s probably one of the friendliest people I know. Put a person like this into an environment contrary to his nature, and it induces a great deal of stress.
We had such a lovely day yesterday. The first day off we both shared since Christmas. It reminded me of just why I love this guy so much. He was more relaxed and happy than I’ve seen him in weeks. It made me so happy to finally see him smiling and laughing easily.
And then something happens and all the stress is back.
Moreover, I really really hate it when people talk about me behind my back or try to use something that I said to hurt other people. I really need for humanity to grow up. I need for people to stop lying for their own gain. I need for people to work hard at their job and live by the virtue of their own merit. I need for people to do the right thing. Then everything will be fine.
My needs are so simple. If other people and their petty ambitions or whatever is motivating them to try to make things difficult for me would just mind their own business, things could all just go along nicely.
I love my husband, and I will do anything to make him happy.
Taking deep breaths. Moving on. Thanks for listening.