I have a problem. I am a compulsive list maker. I can’t seem to stop making lists about anything and everything. Mostly, it’s simple to-do lists, but I also have a book list I’ve been working on for nearly ten years. It pretty much always hovers between 275 and 300 books because I add them faster than I can read them. I update my movie list after the Golden Globes and Oscars every year. I look forward to the opportunity to look at another list. I make lists of things I want to buy. Lists of things I wish I could buy but can probably never afford. I’m a freak.
An extension of this is an annoyingly methodical approach to many things, including cookbooks. I am working my way through Kitchen from front to back, trying everything I can get the ingredients for/get Geoff to eat. I am so glad that I live with someone who does not mercilessly make fun of my need to do things in order. I realize it’s probably weird, but it’s a compulsion. I can’t help it. That’s how I like to do things. In order.
My new list-making obsession will hopefully help make me less squishy. One of my co-workers posted that he had started using http://www.livestrong.com/ and so I clicked on it to see what it was all about. For the past two days I have been writing down everything I ate and keeping track of the calories. I even walked for an hour today with my laptop in my backpack, just so I could have enough spare calories to eat Mexican Lasagna tonight. I’m not sure if this compulsion will last, and I almost never stick to anything long enough to lose weight, but at the moment, it’s fascinating. Mostly I’d rather eat ice cream than be skinny.